A belated journal update
Well 2014 was a year of ups and downs, but then so are most years. To begin with I have had some sort of creative block, I haven’t been short of ideas just found it hard to get on with it and getting them onto canvas or paper. I did move all my art stuff (easel Etc..) into my bedroom and divided it up into studio half and sleeping half but his didn't work as the room is only 12 by 8 feet it was a bit cramped and light in the room (despite me using a daylight bulb) was dark, this had the opposite effect to what I wanted and in the past year only did two paintings and have one unfinished, of the two paintings that I posted in my gallery one was done a couple of years ago and the other I did this year, I also posted a photo that I took years ago and edited last year.
I put this “ Creative block” down to tiredness I was working as a cleaner and having to get up at 4 A.M to go to work cycling 7 miles to get there, a round trip of 14 miles 20 if I go to the pet shop or take a detour to visit someone, and at 55 I am no spring chicken, could not get into the habit of going to bed early and would still be awake after midnight, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. I was also getting stressed out with money problems and was afraid that I was going to end up homeless (again) I was having car problems (still am) see the previous journal entry. And I think that most of what I did was just functioning on autopilot.
In June I applied for a job, same employer, different job and got an Interview, The interview went well and now I had to wait to hear if I got the job. As I didn't hear anything for over a month I pretty much assumed that I didn't get the job.
Another cleaning job came up with more hours a week so I went for that and got it, then I got a phone call asking me if I was still interested in the job I had an interview for this was two months after the interview, which I said yes.
October, Disaster Struck! My Brother in Law Sean, was killed in bike accident, We were not sure what happened originally we thought that he was overtaking a tractor that turned across his path and he was unable to stop in time went straight into it, when my sister got his leather jacket back from the Police, I could see by the marks on it that he had slid down the road, the inquest is not until March. He was a member and moderator of the Crippled Old Biker Brotherhood ((C.O.B.B.) as well as the Unpredictable s Motorcycle club, Wales. Also a Member of the Thorondor motorcycle club, Of which I was also a member. He was Very Popular and will be missed by a lot of people.
In November I started The Job that I had an interview for in June, as a Clean and Green Technician, at the University. Its full time so I am earning more, I am not so stressed out or as tired and my brain seems to have switched back on. However It is not going to be until the middle of the year before I start to get more financially solvent.
December. Basically a quiet month and it just flew by (A bit like this year so far.) My daughter went to stay with her boyfriend's family in Cornwall, so I had Yule/Christmas on my own, I did go to my Mum's on Christmas day and helped cook for her. I postponed our Christmas and my daughter and I still haven’t had our Xmas dinner yet.
January and February I have been doing a bit of sketching and starting to clear the bramble jungle that used to be a garden outside my house.
I also started to work on my old Suzuki GS550 that I bought for £400 in 1983, had some good times on that bike and I was going to sell it for spares and use the money toward a new (Bigger) bike , but nostalgia got the better of me and I decide to restore it, it's going to take a fair amount of elbow grease as the engine is seized through standing, but it is cleaning up OK. I am documenting what I am doing and might put that online with the title something like 70's Budget restoration.
The Police gave my sister a copy of the road traffic investigators files from my brother in laws accident, After reading through it, I could see what had happened, that he went to pass the tractor as it turned and unable to stop he ditched his Triumph hitting the road about 50mph and slid 23 metres into the tractor his bike probably hitting him on the way, the driver of the tractor tried to keep him alive by CPR until the paramedics arrived, but he had massive internal injuries.
This brings us up to now, the garden is looking tidier I planted Cherry trees.. I am actually earning a reasonable wage, Have been getting on with the writing, I gave up with the rewrite of the Dr Who story, I need to concentrate on my original work and get that finished. I still haven't started with the print making yet, I am setting myself a target of at least one hour a day painting and I must draw something daily even if its a thumbnail sketch..
It's odd that now I have less time to do the things I want to do I find that I have a lot more to do and I am now motivated to do them.